Five years ago today, I got the news that my grandpa had passed away. As much of an emotional mess I was then, it still effects me to talk about him. Today has been, interesting. I am not going to ignore this day, because he really did mean a lot to me, but I am looking at it differently for the first time. It isn’t that he left me, or that I am without him, but more that he is with God and our memories mean more than ever.